I am a prisoner of my own mind. Influenced by my life experience, culture, media, the works. I'm afraid to fall in love, and I do my best to avoid it, no matter how badly I want it. I don't really talk to the women I'm attracted to at all, I avoid eye contact as swiftly as I can, and if I really like someone, you can expect that I will just stay the hell away from them all together. Why?... " You have no value. You're disgusting. You're poor. You have no experience. They deserve better than you. You're boring. You're weird (and not the good kind).You're a failure. A waste. No one will ever love you. Yadda.. Yadda."... This is the record that skips in my head. Every. Single. Day.. Love isn't fun for me anymore. It's terrifying. Because I know that when I fall in love, the storm is right there with it, and my mind will play it's part in locking up my heart until both the storm and the love have passed.
So. This picture, is for anyone who struggles with #selfloathing#selfhatred#selfrejection#abandonmentissues#lowselfesteem and/or #depression . You're not as shitty as you think you are, and you're definitely not alone. #lovehurts