I sit here, pondering how to express these strange feelings into something other human beings can comprehend, wishing I could find the words. Wishing I could trust the words.
I have never known love as sunshine or smiles; I have always understood love on a dark and gloomy level, such as to say that love is only love if it manifests into pain. I have known obsession, and only recently have I learned to separate it from love, but it is what I have known my whole life. So, please forgive me if I am inexperienced in the subject, but I’m gonna try.
His smile is so small and cute. And I don’t want to over describe it because it is simply what it is. His eyes are bright to match his mind. I thought I was one of the best, but I didn’t know that his intelligence could radiate into my life like a sunbeam. And he’s tall. And he surprised me. I read people like books but wow did I misjudge his pages. He opened his mouth and my beliefs began to tremble.
This feels like sunshine and smiles. Instead of running up to him and jumping around his waist and twisting my mouth around his, I want to kiss him so gently and just peck at his face until he does it back. This feels like childhood, but not in the sense of immaturity, but rather the ever lasting feeling of innocence. He makes me want to giggle.
And he is single handedly replacing those memories and ideas of pain that once went hand in hand with love. I may not love him right now, but I am excited to see what time will do, for this is also a new experience for my soul as well as my heart.
It's so heart breaking watching this happening every year. Even after knowing that Earth- (OUR Planet WHERE WE LIVE) is having major issues about GLOBAL WARMING, Each day WE The Humans( Who Are Becoming Totally Inhuman) Are Destroying Our Own Planet With Our Inhuman Acts• This Is The Way We Celebrate Festivals• Very Insensitive to our planet Our Home• We the humans carelessly throwing crackers on the road even on the people who're passing by and we're proud that God gave us the brain that works more than any other species which are living on earth and we use our brains for doing this shit• I can not imagine living on the planet covered by smoke and dust where we can't even breath• we the humans eventually destroying our own home by these acts• But Don't Forget That Nature Is Above Everything That Nature Who Created Us Can Destroy Us Too• You're Not Destroying Nature You're Destroying Yourselves• We're Not Different From Nature We're Nature Don't Know When We The Humans Will Understand?• But The People Who Understands Should Take Initiative To Ban This Shity Crackers•