With her up coming Disney land trip with @karen_narvaez_ruiz_1073 and nino I think it’s only appropriate I bring back a #FBF of lily @ her first trip to Disney in 2008 for her first fourth birthday best nino and Tia EVEERRRRR!
Going through high school stuff with @kaitlynengelstad tonight. Found my sophomore class schedule and what do I see? Sammie’s kindergarten teacher’s (@junemeintzer )husband was my math teacher. Yes that was 20 years ago. Read some of my notes from my friends out loud to Kaitlyn. Oh those where funny. #fbf#highschool#20yearsago#old
#FBF to a day when I was going through songs to cover and record alongside my originals.. (upcoming)..working up a medley. You've got to sing (or whateva God has called you to do) happy..hoarse..through disappointments and tests..all to get to the joy that is set before you. In the words of my favorite, Lena Horne.." You just got to do it it girl. " Surrender isn't always easy, especially when plans have been made. My muscles..including my vocal cords have been on the line..but fatigued does not have to mean weary.
#fbf to when I was tan and lived near the beach. For some reason today has been one of considerable reflection. *
You depleted my savings and accumulated thousands of dollars of debt in my name. You brought strangers into my home while I was at one of my three jobs or at school. You called me a bitch, a slut, a cunt, and a slew of other derogatory terms. You pushed me, kicked me, threw things, and barricaded me in rooms. You threatened to kill yourself when I threatened to leave. You tried to make me feel so low about myself that I was deserving of such treatment. You lost. *
Other than financial instability and some unnecessary stress, you left me relatively unphased. You did not waiver my confidence in myself or my abilities. You not shake my faith in people. And you did not hinder my ability to love. *
This is something that has taken me about a year to articulate. Words can’t express my gratitude for my family and my #facemeltfam who supported me and were patient with me through such a trying time. I’m thankful for my new friends and my boyfriend @ayyy_19 who accepted me for my weirdness and my flaws. You all have not only made life bearable, but full of adventure and smiles.
2017 was a relatively stagnant year for me. I pretty much did the bare minimum and didn’t really have any goals set for myself. I think it’s important, especially after going through something traumatic, to give yourself permission to regroup. Plateaus are usually a precursor to a surge of progress. It’s ok to enjoy the down time. It’s ok to give yourself a break. It’s ok to not be on your “A-game”. The debt is dwindling. My savings is rebuilding. I have an amazing new job that will create a lot of opportunity for me in the future. My life is full of people that have my best interest at heart. *
Since I’m reminiscing I’d like to share some memories throughout the last couple years.
I couldn’t be more excited to see where 2018 takes me, the highs and the lows. I am ready. I am optimistic. And I am strong. Bring it on. *