Hi! Haven't updated anything in a while. How's things? I've been feeling confused about how I'm reacting to the new medication on my list (Topamax). On one hand, i feel extremely tired, i feel numbness in my face, hands, and legs, and my problem with not being able to eat has gotten worse (although it hasn't affected my weight, good?? Or is that bad?) I've also got dry eyes, dry nose and ACNE 5000! It's small, painful and all over my face and i felt 2 small bumps on my scalp 😱. Also, i can't sleep. Medications that are ment to put people to sleep work opposite for my family (my whole maternal side) don't know why... So i end up staying awake. I'm not sleepy, I'm tired. Do you get that? Have you experienced similar? And on the other hand, I'm feeling happier. Which is good but very weird, and don't know if I've just gone through a personal change or if it's the medicines. I'm grateful for that at least, because there's been a lot of problems with the medical team and with some people in general that i haven't let bother me.
I've also noticed a lot of fighting between my relatives, it's very hard to watch because I know they love and care about eachother and usually I'm family therapist/translator but I just haven't been able to help. It's getting harder to help them. What should i do? Please send prayers, if you don't mind. There's just so many good things happening to everyone and there are so many jealous people with negativity spreading towards us. there's just so much tension and stress, thick and ugly, hovering. I'm planning to do my Christmas cleaning (it's like a big spring cleaning) this week and hopefully that'll help.
Sending spoons, threads, light, prayers, love 💖
The only way I will eat this bloody salad is if I make it look appealing and give myself a little carb. Honestly, feeling like complete crap this evening so I'd much prefer a massive sandwich for my lunch tomorrow but must get a few pounds off before this Xmas wedding!! #bridesmaid#diet#salad#ill#winterblues#healthyfood#foodporn#help
This is something I wrote a year or two ago, something relevant to now will come after:
Today I am sick and this means that I have an excuse to lay around and do nothing, I'm ill today and it's an illness you can see, I'm ill all the time
But it’s not an illness people see, it’s not physical it’s mental. But because it’s in my head it’s “not the same” or “not as bad”. You wouldn’t tell someone with a broken leg or fucking cancer to just get up. But when all the energy is drained out of me and all I want to do is to die because it hurts so fucking much I just have to “get on with it” or "get over it" because it's not the same. See my illness is in my head.
I am sick.
I have a cold.
And I know boohoo poor me.
But my throat feels like it’s closing up and for a person who has panic attaches this is shit.
I am so anxious at the moment and I can never tell if me feeling sick and not being able to breath is due to anxiety or my cold.
I also think being ill is the worst thing for a depressed person.
Because it feels like this is how it’s always going to be.
And you can’t remember not feeling ill.
Which is like mental health doubled.
And being ill drains all the life and happiness out of your life.
Even more than depression does.
I know this a very stupid and petty and common problem but I don’t care cause I feel like shit.
Praying my boys get better soon! 🙏🏼🙏🏼 the dreaded bronchitis has hit our house hold! 😩😩😩😩 reggie still managed to make the doctors laugh eating his nebuliser today!! Cheeky baby! 💙💙 #myboys#ill#sickbabies#stillfighting#love
Ja, ich sehe aus wie n Topp Sch***e, warum? Weil ich seit ner Woche krank bin und seit Donnerstag jeden Nachmittag/Abend Fieber! Auch wenn mir Mann und Stiefsohn helfen wo sie können, wird es nicht besser. Aber als Mutter ist man ja eh nie wirklich krank.🙄😅
Ich hätte jetzt auch 1000000 Selfies machen können, das Beste raussuchen können und 10000000 Filter drüber legen können, aber wozu? Damit mir jeder sagt das ich doch trotz krank sein so hübsch und frisch aussehe?! Nö!
Man darf auch mal krank sein und mehr als abgefuckt aussehen! So sieht man nunmal aus, wenn man 4 Tage lang immer wieder Fieber bekommt. In diesem Sinne, schönen Sonntag! 🤪#nofilter#krank#ill#sick#fieber#nightfever#fever
A new #sock#wip on the #needles .
Unfortunately there will be no new #podcast episode this week as well because we are all ill. I hope to have a new episode the next week. Thanks for your patience and understanding.
Leider wird auch diese Woche keine neue Podcast Folge kommen, Da wir alle krank sind....die Seuche lebt.
Danke für euer Verständnis und eure Geduld.
Pfffff, ben niet fit. Nadat er al twee zoons door de griep geveld waren, voel ik me nu net een vaatdoek...Hoop dat het niet erger wordt, deze tekst vond ik nu wel toepasselijk. Hebben jullie dat ook wel eens, dat je nog graag een extra weekenddagje had? Fijne avond, voor straks welterusten 😘 I'm not feeling fit, think I have the flue. Hope it does not gets worse. This quote says what I think, do you know that feeling? Have a nice evening, sweet dreams 😘 #nietfit#griep#ziek#ill#tekst#quote#weekend#instaquote#quoteoftheday