@iambrillyant x lost letter to an old friend.
there are parts to me that don't exist anymore, parts to me i left behind years ago, parts to me i left behind moments ago. i'm constantly shedding, and constantly growing new skin, because i'm trying to evolve past the things that don't stimulate me anymore, past the things that don't speak to me anymore, past the things that don't fill me anymore. and if i left you behind during my process, understand that it wasn't out of malice, it wasn't out of selfishness, it wasn't out of egotism, it was out of self love, and i hope even you can appreciate that. #poetrytapes
"I had rarely seen someone as complex as her. She was strong but you still were afraid you could easily break her because she seemed so fragile once she opened up. She was brave but somehow couldn't silence her inner voice who was a symphony of anxiety and sorrow. She kept people on distance while constantly putting herself in their shoes because she knew the best way to help others is to understand them first. She could be quiet like a Sunday afternoon and wild like a Saturday night. She was afraid of holding on but hadn't learned how to let go either. She spoke so easily about her feelings that nobody could imagine how she kept her secrets buried deep in the ground.
But the most bittersweet thing about her was the way she loved. She did it with all her heart or not at all. It was beautiful to witness her filling rooms and people's hearts with joy and laughter, but I never managed to understand how someone who loved so much and so many could be so afraid of being loved back."
Excerpt from the #poem titled, "Questioning" out of the #poetry book titled, "The Diaries of Sa' Mara Psalms Volume I: Tears, Honey, Hip-Hop & Passion" written by five-time published #Author Sa' Mara Psalms in 2002 at the age of 20.
________________✒ “Never think that LOVING you is why I need you; I need you because I LOVE you; a need that is unexplainable to my lips but understandable in my soul; a need so unknown to players in the Himalayas.
My heart is leaking, but seen by my tears; I’m drowning slowly in my own tear’s water. Drenched because you are questioning my LOVE; look into my eyes while I LOVE you slow. I gave you several years of my life, but still you are questioning my lips embracing your neck.
Never think that LOVING you is why I need you; I need you because I LOVE you; a need that is unexplainable to my lips but understandable in my soul; a need so unknown to players in the Himalayas.
You’re the only one; my heart desires your touch. Can this silly LOVE song possibly keep us together for another 24-hour cycle? Believe me don’t deceive me; your LOVE is my oxygen; all I need is your LOVE to survive. You kiss my lips and embrace my hips, but question my LOVE for you.
Never think that LOVING you is why I need you; I need you because I LOVE you; a need that is unexplainable to my lips but understandable in my soul; a need so unknown to players in the Himalayas.”
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